Beauty Chase.

One night, many nights ago, God dropped this phrase in my heart, "beauty chase". A relentless pursuit after beauty, the beauty that he had planned to reveal in my life. I need to chase it, to complete it. To fulfil it. It was a night, where hopes and dreams rekindled in a soul so broken from the many lost battles. The war, is still ongoing, I am still fighting. I want to chase that beauty, and I want to pursuit his glory. His holiness, his everything.
"He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men." Ecclesiastes 3:11
It was a verse that came later that night.
Somehow, I was comforted.
Since then, I went on a wild chase, true to my paradox nature. It was pretty clear that God had promise beautiful things, but all in his time. Tonight, I revisited beauty chase. I caught hold of eternity, I'm made for eternity, I'm reminded to be not too caught up with the things that are temporal. Let me learn, not to rush. Not too many things at one time.

I'm very glad I made the effort to attend the BGR seminar, even though it meant skipping gym and rushing to and fro from vocal lessons. I think it's very worth it, I really gotten much from the seminar. Even though they were the things I already, but man are forgetful, we always need reminders. I am simply so eager to learn in this BGR seminar, and God really never fail me, to refresh me with new insights and a even stronger desire to lead a pure and holy life for him.

Alrights, I need to get back to my work... need to complete this before I sleep....
-script for mega event.
-fill in names for workshop in camp.

Time check... 4:05am

Mission conference at 9am...

>.<

I am less than 5 hours from it.

In conversation.

I had a msn conversation with an old old friend, I had forgotten when I got to know him. He seem so bitter about life. He is so angry with God.
For a moment, my heart, sank for him.
He didn't feel God, feel him too.
God's there but far far away.

It made me realise, how priviledge am I.

I hope one day, he will feel it, that God feels him.
His sorrows, and his every emotions.
One day. I will pray.

God is sweet

My days and weeks had been hectic.
But he sent me good company.
I enjoyed my Monday.
Thank God for Shirls and Hammy Chong.
I could finally whine, Hammy Chong met me so that I could whine. Haha =)

God is really good to me ^^

And so as I woke up today at 7am, I can't help it but to worship him.

Priceless

Listening:Crowded House - Don't Dream It's over

The song that I'm listening right now, is actually one of my all time favourite =) But it's been so long since I listen to it, reason now that I'm listening to it, it coz I'm doing research for camp's mega event. We gonna do a drama on Australia, and this song came to my mind, coz I remember hearing in on one of the tourism ad. (Of which I fell so deeply in love with this song! But I wonder if it's really the song or the scenary). Anyways, after a while, I realise, the ad is not for Australia but New Zealand. >.<

Keyboard lessons for entire course $1500
Vocal lessons for entire course $1200
California membership for a year $690
A simon and patrick guitar $850
My favourite Chanel sneakers $500
My wallet $100
1 movie ticket $9.50
1 starbucks trip $6
Friend who shares my heart priceless

There are many good things in my life that I can purchase, sooner or later.
But good friends are hard to find.
I pray that as I go through the above list, and begin a new phase of my life, God will also send me a friend to go through all this with me. A friendship like Johnathon and David in the bible.
I'm a complicated mix, God, please send me patient friend. =)

Sophia...Sophia

Listening: Nerina Pallot - Sophia




Nerina Pallot is a multi instrumentalist, she knows how to play the guitar, piano, and violin.

I am a multi instrumentalist (amateur) too, I know the keyboard, guitar, recorder. I once knew how to read "dao gays" till I decided to stop practicising, and chose the easier path of chords. One day, I will want to return to the dao gays again, because, in my lifetime, I want to do classical and jazz. I seriously don't know how or when, that will happen, but when I want to do something I normally will do it. Right now, the only want I so desperately failed to achieve, is weight loss. Once I can conquer that I can pretty much conquer many things.

SMU said no.
FASS still no reply yet.
I am pretty set on my year break.
Most around me were a little skeptical towards the break.
I wonder how Hammy Chong will say about it. I am surprise I did not discuss with her.
Actually it's pretty obvious to myself that I want the break, and need the break.
Just.
If FASS says yes, then Theatre, Literature, History and French might be a tad too tempting, alluring...
I think FASS will most prob give me a no, I hope, they do.

God has been very divine in my life lately.
Important decisions made, with consequences.
In a way, it seems as if, I have a choice, the power to decide, yet, the degree of such a power is simply insignificant.
And the bible says, delight in the Lord for he will give you the desires of your heart.

Just at times, my dreams are so lofty.
So much bigger than me and my abilities.
I've got no choice but to look to him.

Trends and Style.

Wow...this place had been stagnant for quite a long time!
So much had been going on in my life....
I will come back to update again.

I am looking still looking for my style and voice.
Keep me in prayers.
=)

* Trends come and go, style lasts forever...

Chantel on the pretty, useless things.

I'm a sucker for pretty things, especially when they are useless. >.<

Pretty useless....hahs....